Just feel didn't right about it

Never knew how it hit me? But it did!

Is it control of my life? A challenge being wrestled out by some dictatorship!

Feel I am ready. I am

The other day I read a quote from Azim H Premji "Now or never"

The whole thing will not make a sense unless and until I will be giving a picture. Well, here it goes. Bossy in the org. seem to be taking an unusual advantage of their position and seem to play politico game.

But, well what can I say - I am a changed man. Doing what I am best at - R & D. I believe I am on my way to my goals.

Worst things are not over yet!!!

I have lost everybody I loved and this is happening yet again. Just did not feel right about the choices I have taken but I had to. It is time to make a change

Do Project Managers know their job?

I always wonder what are the qualifications required to become a PM? Is it enough to complete a BE/ BTech - 6/7/8/9/10 years of experience - some training - and tada............. here we have a new PM joining the forces of dumbos.

Project Management - by sheer sense means to manage project. Lets drill this down further. Who are homo sapience involved in making this happen? dev, qa, architect,..
So the PM should also be a people manager. And guess what guys, I have not found a single proper PM till now. Truly!! at least in India

Dictator is often apt word that fits a PM. Pretty simple to explain they do not have a convincing capability.

Lets examine the flaws - not fluent with English, no proper writing skills, they have no idea about what their product does (this is the least I would have expected), no proper business etiquette

God knows when they call themselves as a project manager, what they are really trying to prove

Mera India Mahan!

Mera Bharat mahan!

How many of us are proud to be an Indian? Whenever we compare ourselves with other countries, there are often apt word used to describe our feeling "There is nothing like India"

What is that drives us to be an proud to be Indian? Dunno

One of my fav movies "Swades" has just something to think about?

In the movie, Villagers compare India with rest of the countries and reply - we have values and others don't have!!
oh wow - Does not rest of the countries have that?

I happened to be in NY, and guess what - I was stunned at how gracious, peace-loving, rules-following (at least most of them) they were. If you go into their history, they were number one Gangsters! What changed them?

Why are we not striving to be the best? Why is the individual effort missing? Why do we blame everything to the government?

Financial Dilemma!

If I were to deposit cash in a Bank, will it be safe? Where can I invest? In which sector shall I have confidence on?

The situation is pretty sore and recovery in the near future has become a matter of question. Sensex and Nifty have been brutally crushed. Now it is one-third of the valuations from the highs.

Investments in Gold, real estate was supposed to be a safe bet and now it has turned into high risk zone. Where can a middle class person invest?

Well, the best thing to do is to hold on to cash until, clear signals are visible. If you have debt, then this is the time to pay them off.

MFs are not trustable anymore! Stay away from them.

Moments!

Being flamboyant can sometimes be a mixture of ridicule and laugh, as the audience is not prepared for you! This is most common when you hold meeting with dumbos of the century.

Being expressive in oneself is considered to be a trait that very few have. But when you deal with not-so-serious types, you may become a subject of ridicule. Now how do you deal with such moments?

When the smile has a hint of smirk, then it becomes a battle of wits. I was ill knowledged about with such junkos some time back. But let me give you some tips.

During such instances, the best statements are "Got a problem" (loud and clear), "something funny". The listener will be dumb-struck and will nod their head.

Ha... hit them hard where it pains!

How bad can you screw-up?

Juggernaut rolling on the railing has finally taken a side of my opponent. The cogent on convincing my inner soul does not seem to have worked.

It is all about Common Admission Test (CAT).

I will not be surprised of my fall, if it really happens for it was something that I did not assiduous work.

Where is the Goddamn spark!

My preparation was just for a month. My strategy was as good as a 5 year old kid who does not care about his future.

Let's start putting things on the table. What do you want to achieve in your life? What do you want to be? Where do you want to be ? Do you like what you are doing?

I am a very ambitious boy who does not have a proper directed path. Who dreams to be big, but does not really put the right efforts on the right direction. Well, I did follow the foot steps of my role model 3 years back. It goes all here; I am a finance freak. I am passionate about stock market. My instincts have most of the times worked. Well, like any other investors even I have done sever mistakes. I was able to convert 2000G to 4300Grand. It is a different story that during market blood meltdown I lost more than 50%.

But, that is not the point. Where will the stocky thing will take me to. I need a bloody degree to prove my skills.

CAT would have just helped me with that! and what did I do? Blow it up royally.

Today was one of my worst days of my carrier in WT. I felt very lonely. Bloody company does not have any capable/ mindful person whom I can talk to.

Ya mere Rab, hame rastha dekha!!

Thoughts Ideas.. Just One Spark

Dunno... but why me? why? why? why? but why?

Existence! If I exist now? where was I when I was not.. Sleeping, waiting for God to unleash me on earth!

Are you scared of death? Well, I am! Lets see, how will it be in the astral world to decipher the difference between the state of mind when u sleep and when you have left the body (I mean passed away!)

It is not for this reason that I sleep late (4:00 am) But it quizzes me the perfection of the world this world has. Why is it so perfect? Whatever we do has some margin of error? Even 6 sigma guys will agree with me on this.

So, what is the purpose of life? work? get married? go to onsite? What did god create us for?

Is it a test for eternal life or if I die, I go to sleep forever.

This makes me feel like leaving behind a mark. I am no Einstein or Newton or my role model Warren Buffet. what is it the bloody thing am I waiting for? All I need is a spark.

Come on sparky, spark.

Damn! I am an IT Engineer

Damn! I am an IT Engineer

But why why why but why?

Why did I do the same mistake as the rest of the folks and followed the wind.

Was it is because I did not want to be left behind the race or was it the money.

To come to think, was my 3 yrs in IT really worth. Have I lost quality time? Have I degraded my standard? Have I ruined the name of the CBSE students ?

It is 3 years, but it still feels the same. I don't understand what I have achieved till now is really worth.

Well now I have a designation of "Module Leader". But I am scared to death when I have to leave the current account. What is that I will be if I am leaving this account and starting fresh all over again.

I will loose all the lovely contacts, credibility and worst of all everything I have build here.

But I think the time has come to decide whether I have to stagnate or think beyond.